Rough day...

Yesterday was a rough day - well after noon (the morning was fun!) I was so nervous for my update and then when I got it - I just focused on the fact that we were NOT in the Embassy rather than the fact that we have his birth certificate! Thank you, Lord!!!! He has our last name now and we are listed as his parents!! It's SO official!!!

I called my Mom after reading the update and started crying to her. (These last few days have
really gotten harder). After I hung up, I sobbed. Then I just felt down most of the evening...crying at most anything! I'm not sure why it's hit me so hard. I think that now that we are SO close - I've kind of have let my guard down. I've allowed myself to dream about him more. Allowed myself to buy clothes for him and finish his room. I am nesting - getting my home organized and cleaned and yet we still WAIT!!

I ache for Hudson - it's easy to cry when I talk about him. I miss him so much and I feel like even one more week of waiting will do me in!! I know God is here and will give me the grace. I know that I have SO much to be thankful for...WE ARE ALMOST DONE...but I still WAIT!

Today I read in Hosea chapt. 11. Vs. 3 just struck me. It's talking about God's love for Israel. "...I lifted the yoke from their neck and bent down to feed them." In a way, I feel like I have this burden on my neck - waiting- it's heavy and it's hard to carry but Christ loves me so much and is kneeling down to relieve me of it and "feed" me. He continues to nourish me with His Word and His love! I am blessed. I will get through this and I pray GOD will be GLORIFIED mightily!! I love you! Thanks for your prayers. Please keep them coming!!